ugh i hate this mood

So stressed scared and everything all rolled into one i hate feeling like this and my natural reaction is to push everyone away. I just noticed this morning asking me if she upset me I had to message her and tell her no it was not her that did anything at all it is jsut my way of dealing with everything i feel that suport is important going through all of this but sometimes I just get cold and just dont want to talk i feel bad because i made her feel bad I know she will not stay angry with me but I feel that this is a very important post to concentrate on because it is a part of the emotional aspect of what any chronic illness does to a person Just had to get that out I hate feeling like this it is so hard