update non endo related

I know that i have put a few pics up to dedicate my blog to endo awarness month and yes that is still the plan but my life isnt all endo that i deal with which everyone who reads knows well i had an ortohopedic appointmetn this morning and things didnt go so well. I have to have a build put on my left shoe to even out my leg length difference and then once that is done I also have to see the nurologist to see about geting on medication for the spasms. After the medication takes affect we are hoping that the meds will relax my muscles enough so that i can be braced because as oof now he can not position my foot in the position needed for braving he said it is very contracted which is not good i have very little range of motion in that ankle right now and he says that it needs bracing to strengthen it and if the bracing fails it will be surgery yucky trying to deal with one thing at a time and thursday will begin endo awarness month thank you to all my dedicated readers

getting ready to dedicate my blog to endo awarness

this is a ribbon picture that I made to show the awareness color of endometriosis there are words on the edges of the page that may not be readable so I am going to type them in a list here
top left corner says Endo is life long
to the right of that says endo affects fertility
below that says 30-49 %of females with endo are infertile
below that says there are many treatments for endo
bottom right says we have endo endo does NOT have us
the area between the ends of the ribbon says please spread awareness
bottom left corner says endo sufferers are very strong
above that says hope for a cure
above that says endo usually causes chronic pain
endo affects more than 5.5 million women

20 days and the countdown begins

ust looked on my calandar and realized i have 20 days left until my surgery eek lolnervous yet ready hope all is well with everyone endo awarness month is fast aproaching

Op in a month exactly today

very ready yet still kind of having ahard time with it hard to explain for sure but that is how it is ready for the oprospect of pain relief. i am also having a maraina inserted teh same time as surgery is being done yes that is birthcontrol but in my case we are hoping it slows the growth of the endo as it has not estrogen in it and only has progesterone estrogen is the hormone that endometriosis feeds on to grow.
so teretically i hystorectomy should be a cure or you would think but it isnt endommetriosis has a mind of its own and many people that i connect with in suport groups have had a hysterectomy only to still have pain because of endometriosis this isnt totally understood but many researchers are finding that some onplants of endometriosis produce their own suply of estrogen the fun of a desiease with a mind all its own it is definately a chalange but not one im going to let win ready for march for sure i want my life back cant wait to feel good agian even if it is for a few years

pre op is less than a month away so ready but yet so nervous need pain relief

i guess i should really start to concentrate on my list of pre ope questions now that it is in les than a month im ready now i have bbeen in alot of pain today and any posibility at relief is much wanted right now thansk again for all the continued suport

surgery the emotional rollercoaster

In a few days my blog will be dedicated to endo awarness for the month of march not sure on all of the topics as of yet but jus twanting to let u all know this is my part to spread awarness on a cindition that i want a cure for so that no other people that I know and love have to suffer through it please stay tuned if you are interested to learn about endo and hear more of my story.
Well i said i would update when i had more info on surgery it is march 13th have to be at the hospital before 7:45 so glad that this one is an early one my first one was at 2 in the afternoon which was hard caue i could not eat all day ugh never want to do that one again lol. so ther are all the details on surgery until i have my pre op appointment on the fifth of march.
My emotions have been in a total roller coaster I know the op is the right choice yet im very sad to know that i will be losing a part of me that is connected to reproduction as you probably know it is my left tube and ovary. It has been rendered pretty much unusavle sinc last surgery 2 years ago but it is still very trying. Praying that it brings me much needed pain relief. having a hard time dealing with anything baby related only seems to be really little ones like from in the belly till one right now from one on im good but right now it just makes me think of so much stuff and majority of it hurts but i will get through this like I have everything else. i just keep praying that my right ovary is unchanged from last op two years ago becaue if it has gotten more endo on it it will more than likely be difficult for me to become pregnant if the time comes where i meet the right person sorry for TMI but need to get this out and its easier to write it here than to try and talk about it thanks for reading and thank you for your continued suport