hello to all its nearly a new year

I have gottne up to date on all my blogs that i follow recently glad you all had a great holiday sheila it was awsome to see malayna in her concert she is beautiful and loved watching her find henry the elf. I also managed to enjoy a beautiful christmas despite my endometriosis and other medical stuff. i was in quite a lot of pain but i didnt let it stop me from being with my family yes I may have been on pain medicatioon yes some people may have not agreed that i was on them or understood why and yes that is hurtful but I got through it.
This christmas was so happy and yet still so difficult for me . It is sometimes really difficult for me to be around all the lil ones do not get me wrong i love them to pieces and would not want them out of my life but sometimes especially around holidays its tough. I am waiting to ring in the new year although wuite nervous about what it will bring. Another surgery I know for sure just unsure of when i will know more the 12th of january.
Well I got soem awsome gifts for christmas i got a new i pod which is awsome when im stuck in bed.
also got a massager which is awsome for some of my pain relief
Got some more comfy pants as I call them lazy pants ha ha not that im lazy its just that streach pants are the only thing comfortable at this moment my belly is so tender and bloated from too much food this holiday and endo along with lupron yep lets just say to many factors against my poor belly lol.
also got sot a nice fuzzy blanket for my many hours that i spend in bed.
yes I am sure you can all tell that this is my life of chronic ilness speaking right now. But anything for comfort is awsome and i am truly thankful to everyone for the wonderful christmas that i had also got a new game system which is portable and very fun yes i guess we can all say im spoiled lol my favorite gift well two actually are my i pod and my recumbant bike but i am sad because im not sure when i will get to use my bike as much as i want to I am afraid that it will increase my pain but cant find out yet as we have not had much free time to set it up .
Oh and an update on the urology med not much change yet nut hoping it helps soon there isnt as much tightningin my bladder but the burning is still all too present.

urology appointment over with

this is one out of the many appointments I have comming up but it is done do not go back until febrayry she was not going to do anything for my ic until i just finally broke down and told her that i had been suffering for two years or longer with this ammount of pain and i wasnt going to any longer something needed to be done so she finally gave in and gave me an anti spasmodic med. The hardest par was her looking at me and telling me that my negative attitude had alot do do with my pain levesl and yes i know tht negativity and stress are not good for chronic ilness but i really dont think im that negative of a perso and better yet my appointment was at eight in the morning so we shall see how this goes with the medication next appointment on the list is i believe the GI but it may ntot be do not have my calander in front of me lol

found a family member with endo or who had it prior to hysto

this has been a pretty eventful month for me i was talking to my cousin on facebook and found that she had endo so I guess they are right that it runs in families so now i have someone to talk to that is a relative and knows what im going through. I go see the urologist on wednesday that should be interesting and then i go see the gi doctor on the fifth and then the ob for my final lupron shot on the 12th of january not really liiking forward to any of this but i will get through and will blog my updates after each appointment

Two years today

it has been two years to the day since my life changed greatly. Being diagnosed with endo has taught me not to take anything for granted never know from day to day what I am going to be able to do from day to day. It has taught me to enjoy the small things in life and do my best to stay positive no matter how hard things get. I have allot of emotions today from happy to sad to thankful and many more all because of one incurable life changing illness endometriosis. Why am i happy because my pain has a name and i now know I'm not crazy which i knew all along but many others thought differently. Why am i sad because endo has also forced me to realize that one of my grreatest dreams may never come true and that is to be a mom but i try and stay on the positive side of that as well. I am thankful for so many things i don't even know where to begin. thankful for the many wonderful doctors that i finally have thankful for my suport system even though sometimes they dont understand thankful for all my wonderful endo sisters and more than anything thanful for the part I am able to play in raising awatness of this conditon so hopefully we can find a cure or at least easier diagnosis and treatment options since we have to take small steps to get to the big one thanks all for reading just an annaversarry note to my endo and me helpng myself to prepare for another long but eventful year of living with it hugs and i hope to see some of my readers visiting me soon miss u guys lol.