freedom tomorrow happy yet nercous

the cath has not been too nad honestly they look worse than they really are. the one i had in the GYN clinic did hurt cause my urethra was not streached but this one has not been bad at all. i have slept through the night since the night of surgery. i wake to get a drink wehn my mouth is dry right now but go right back to ZZZZZZZ land it is so nice.
i want my natural bodily function back but yet im scared that as soon as that happens i am going to hav pain again. i really hate this. i hate beign nervous about everything. But Right now I can officially say I have absolutely NO palvic pain and I am waiting to see My OB so I can tell her i had five pain free days she will be so happy to hear that i have not yet been able to tell her of many days in a row with relief really hoping this was the solution and right now would i do it again in a few yresif pain returned yes most definately no regrets here on this one. five days of no pain reminds me there is hope and that i can be me again/

surgery was a success

Things went really well today dint really get too nervous until the sleepy man and women came had an anestesiologist and a nurse anestitest. things went very well and i am having bery lettle pai. had fentynol in recovery and have since taken one pyridium medicine to numb my bladder and one tramadol my pain med that is as needed for endo so i think im a success on this one folow up on tuesday to see how things are going and have the cath removed.

another update

In response to your previous coment sheila Yes the cystoscopy has been rescguduled for the hospital under general anestesia.
i had my follow up appointmetn with my regular doctor thursday after going into the ER on the fifth for pelvic pain again. in the ER they said everything was fine when i went to my primary doctor she told me that i had some small cysts on my ovaries which normally would not cause pain but im not in a normal situation lol and she also said that it looked like my ovary was nearly attached to my uterus. i dont know if that was from ultrasoind report or from previous reports but any way im still confused and hoping i can hold out until june when i can see my GYN again because i can not do it this month with everything going on its jusst not going to happen. I am feeling pretty good right now but litterally i am taking it moment by moment again for the time being.

May is not my month yet again

I went for my bladder scope AKA a cystoscopy today. Needless to say it did not go so well lol. They were unable to get the scope in. Seh tried three different times and failed all three. She asked if i wanted her to continue to try in the office or do the proceedure under anestisia. i opted for anestesia because she said she was going to have to streach my urethra to get the scop in doesnt sound too apealing and when the doctor says it will be painful it is more than painful lol. that was my day today not a good one but it is over and i am more relaxed now that ive been home for a long while lol.

rough week

Well i have had a tough week this week. I started feeling really crampy on monday and struggled with it until thursday until it got so bad i could no longer deal with the discomfort. Went to ER again after a seven month reprieve. i was so disapointed I just wanted to not need to go back for a really long time.
I got some much needed relief. Unfortunately i had to take the ambulance again but they were great and the Er staff were pretty good too the only thing that bothers me is they said there was no reason for the pain even though i told them repeatedly that i had endometriosis they did treat my pain and i guess that is all i can ask for.
i had to have another ultrasound nd it was so painful I was in tears. i think this was the worst one that i have had done and i have had many. I am pretty sure she had issues finding the blood flow in my left ovary she was kind of panicking and in turn I was laying there saying my god what is she finding or not finding and then i figured it out because she kept turning the blood flow tracker on and off and i heard it on my right side and not left for some time boy was i afraid thought i was going under the knife again ahhh.
The relief is thankfully she found it and no surgery for me ye tthank god. i have been in bed most of the week and weekend but I am starting to feel better. i have my scope of my bladder on tuesday and will update on that soon.