My appointment did help the other day but i am still very anxious. I have been sleeping a little better though since friday that is a relief. i just really neeed this over with and then i will start to feel better. I talked about things to somone on friday ut not my usual counsoler because she has been out for a while hoping she gets back sooon miss seeing her.
i thold her about my first trip to the kidney specialist and that I remember being told that I was a good candidate for dyalysis and she was like no wonder you have anxiety about going. She then thought maybe some different meds combined with my already existing antidepressant may be helpful. I have strongly thought this over and decided that meds are not the answer for this. I need to face my fears without medication. If I still have as much anxiety if I require another trip than meds it will be for sure cause I can not do this again. I am however handleing things alittle better but just still really emotional. So many have said dont worry but seriously if they were in my shoes you tell me you would not worry. I am trying really hard to think positively and that has helped me overcome some of the major sleeping issues but i am still worried.
i had a pretty busy day today which helped take my mind off of the situation for a bit I watched a friends little girl for a few hours and then came home and have been struggling not to think on this but as you all see its not working so wellfour more days and some of the anciety will be gone then it will just be the anxiety of waiting for the test results
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