extremely ancious

Well my appointment is now pretty much here and i am dreading it seriously. I know i need to go but it is one of those things that I would love to avoid. i can not do that now though because I have family who know about it and knew about it from the get go or at least before I did so they are awaiting the next step. I am too as for hope of not having pain any more. it has diminished some since the surgery but not like i had hoped. SOO nervous