A slight step backwards

Ok lol had to type this one twice now ha ha
Well I have been having bladder pain again so i am thinking she is going to order the test for IC. I am not too fond of the idea lol and honestly don't want to tell her i am having the pain but the only way to get help is to be honest.
I have also been having a hard day with my reflux today. my fault though for eating sausage should have known better lol won't be doing that for a while. I have been taking the meds regularly as i am suposed to and with them it is notmally ok to eat sausage but not now zi guess. I think i may need to talk to the primary about it in December because this is the second episode I have had since July. Not fun but i am going to wait it out and gfo to my regular follow up because i have appointments comming up soon and do not need any more stress right now.

I am oficially taking my life back after the pain yay

I am now on the search for weekend babysitting jobs in my area. Im not having much luck yet but it has only been a few days since i posted it to my facebook so let's hope i can get some responses and I will begin advertising in other ways as well once I get the f;yers typed up. I am officially tired of beng in the house so glad for that feeling to be back again. i did not think it would be comming back any time soon lol.
I have to stay home durring the week because i have the obligation of taking care of my beautiful three year old niece while others in the family work. I love it so much but just need somethign outside of my home. I miss the outside world lol. Well that is my update for now gotta get going and find some motivating music to get some of this house work done lol have a good day all

Here i am playing with my cousin baby while auntie went to Ohio to see bradley.

This was taken wheile i was dog sitting for my aunt he had fun this was one of the few times they played believe it or not she is eight years old I think and still likes to play

new pics of Jake as promised

Here is my boy sitting all nice for his picture lol it took a while

Long night last night

I dog sat for someone last night and did not sleep well at all I was not at home and there is the story. I was awake at 11 PM in the shower trying to get relaxed. Didn't happen lol i was up watching the sun rise. something I have not done in almowt a month with no pain except for the past four days since it is almost time to change the ring yay tuesday can't come fast enough I am getting excited to be fully pain free again
Any how speaking of dogs and all there will be some new pictures of Jake comming soon. he is my pride and joy even though he seems to like knocking me down on my toosh since his operation lol he is a big brat sometimes but hes my baby

Almost forgot wht endometriosis feels like yeah almost

not really I will never ever forget that farmilliar tourturous pain but I am happy it has been four days shy of a month and i just started having mild to moderate pains today when i posted before it was just little twinges but these are not huge but not little painful episodes.
I am praying it is because my nuva ring is about ready to need a refill aka to be changed. I pray that this works for more than a month. I am so leary and probably will be for a long time . it is hard to get too far intot eh future when you think um what if I am doing somethng like visiting a friend which i did this past weekend and the pain returns.
i know i should not think this way but its kind of difficult not to after living in pain for so long. As i said in a previous entry I am sure i have had issues since 13 and was not diagnosed until 23 almost 24 years old my diagnosis was a welcome but unwanted early birthday gift given on december fourth 2009.
It has now been nine months and guess what I am still not fully adjusted tot he fact that i have this condition. i don't lnow if i will ever be. i am forced to live with it but it is also so hard to realize that this horrible condition has been pleguing me for years and no one wanted to take action.
It is frustrating and it has also been an emotional rollercoaster. one day I think OK I am good with having this then a few days later I sit and say well I dont know if i want kids yet or not and wonder if that will happen because of the endometriosis.
I guess I have basically honestly been taking life one day at a time since the diagnosis and for some time before. It is painful to think on the future right now in the means of children so i just do what i can to make the days good,
I never knew one thing could cause so many different thoughts and emotions. It can be so confusing and frustrating sometimes. I can not wait until tuesday so I can forget teh pain again and feel like me that is the most frustrating part of the whole thing. well I have to go for now jake is barking up a storm think he is tangled or wants to come in

My wii fit progress thus far

Well honestly ots not too much ha ha been using it every day since i got it the thirty minutes is getting easier but other than that not much change Im gonna kep working at it though. I can tell it is getting close to the time for the birthcontrol to be changed as far as putting a new one in. I am getting vrampy but nothing like it was before where i could not move so no complaints here just letting everyone know that my body is still telling me what it needs lol. Sometiems it knows better what i need than my brain does ha ha.
Sheila is Malayna doing any better with PT again? I hope that you guys found something that has worked to keep her motivated that is very important i am going to start mine again soon it will be incorperated in with the workout to kep my muscles more limber. i have been doing a few of them but not as i shoukld ill admit it is hard to stay motivated if i slip for a day it tough to get back in the routine. i hope malayna enjoys school when it starts again for the full year. Does she recieve her therapies in school at all? well gonna go for now talk to you all later

Monday is here and the weekend was great

I had an awsome weekend this weekend saturday especially. I got to see my best friend who was in alot of my classes durring middle and high school. I have not seen her since graduation six years ago OMG it was so awsome.
I also got to meet her son jordan and her husbamd vincent. I am so happy that she is doing so well. She has one beautiful little boy. I wish she did not live so far away but thats ok I can keep in touch and it makes every tiem we get together better. i am noping that her mom will post pics on face book so I can try and post them here. not sure how well that will go though have nottried it yet. Well that is about it for now but I'll be back soon for another update

Jake is back to 100 percent puppy brat lol he is p;aying again and everything cant keep him down ther is no way he is a five month old lab that does not work apparently. this is the first lab i have owbed i have only had one other dog and he was alot of work too but I feel old i cant keep up with him lol
i got wii fit plus yesterday it is tons of fun i love it used it for thirty mins this morning yeah it is alot of work though. Thats it on my end for now ill post again after the party gonna go give jake water and get him ready for bed

my week thus far ands its only tuesday lol

Well my weekend went well now it is the begining of a long week. Jake My puppy had his surgery yesterday so he can not help make the puppy population any bigger lol he was nutered. I know it sounds mean but it is the right thing to do to calm him down some and keep him from running in search of other female dogs hes my baby and if anything happened to him i would be crushed.
Yesterday was the waiting game we dropped him off at eight and then had towait until 200 to pick him up but we had some stuff that we did in between to pass the tiem we had to take my aunt to DMV to renew her license so we went ito the mall for a bit and had lunch at taco bell then I came home and cleaned out his crate and put fresh blanket in there and made him his rice.
he has to have rice with his dog food to prevent him from bomiting yep i even get the difficult dog lol I love him to death though, Yesterday was a day of rest for the two of us He slept most of the day and then suddenly popped out of his crate around seven thirty and actually scared me becasue he had beeen so quiet lol.
Today begins the process of trying to keep him mellow for the next seven to ten days um yeah right uh huh how is that going to work lol he is already back to being a pig and trying to be a nut like he was before so now when he gets to hyper I put him in his crate for a few hours and that helps mellow him out don't want any complications for my baby. I have not dared to look at teh incision I want to but I am afraid of hurting him mom has though so that is good well that is it for my week thus far and oh no its not I ma going to my friend's babies birthday party that i have not seen since highschool graduation so excikted she lives in virginia now She and her husband were both in the military until she got a medical discharge so proud of them

Its friday yay

I am glad it is the weekend. My body is tired from all the walking but I am going to try and keep it up at least durring the week the weekend though is mine to catch up on rest unless of course i decide to go for a spuradic walk not sure yet it all depends on how i am feeling tomorrow. Any how i had a great week with my niece and o great week over all and still feeling good yay for that no appointments this month for the ob or anything else. I plan on doing my best to keep it that way.

Feeling good again

Happy for that lol. I have been walking ecery day this week with Faith going to the river and dipping our feet in the water . Its tireing but good for me. I need to keep it up to get some weight off lol. Its not east but its needed to keep my hips in check don't need any more issues with them.
i need to get back into doing my physical therapy as well it is so hard to keep all this stuff going it is physically and mentally tiring.
And as for comments to my two fellow fololowers i have tried cranberry juice and it does not work for me for urine infections because i can not drink enough of it even diluted because of my reflux thye ar thinking it may be related to my endometriosis because my urine dips have been negative lately. It is something i can't say but is abreviated IC. SIt is a chronic inflamation of my bladder lining.
To sheila with the Merilax post, I have not tried it i take metamucil it is orange flavored and rotten on the reflux but it does work for the constipation. I have been takin g it twice a day every day since the issue and no more pain or issue so yep think im gonna keep going I have also been eating rasin bran yummy my favorite cereal why i did not remembe rthat I dont know lol